Have you ever wanted more than one thing at the same time but couldn’t afford to buy them all? On what basis did you make your choice? What motivation was behind it?
A while ago, I wished for two things: a greenhouse and a piano. Since I could only get one, I had to make a decision. I had already started to take piano lessons and made up my mind that I will save up the money to buy a digital piano. A dear friend arranged to find a way for me to get a keyboard: I was able to borrow one to practice what I had learned. It was fun to pick up a musical instrument again and learn how to play it. On the other side, the thought of owning a greenhouse would not let me go. Then, one day, I felt this strong conviction that I’m learning to play the piano for the wrong motive. I asked myself: Am I only doing this to please others and to gain that feeling good about myself approval? Oh, uh! I returned the keyboard I had borrowed and put my plans on hold.
I never really like the ordinary greenhouses, the ones that have a pointed roof and panels of glass for a covering. I tended more towards a polytunnel instead but was afraid of putting it together and putting the plastic sheet over it. When I found out how expensive they are, the decision was clear. Then, I saw it: a greenhouse that looked more like a polytunnel! And it was in a price range we could afford – compared to the polytunnels which were just too expensive for us to buy. I ordered it and, if you read my last two posts, you know what happened.
What do we treasure? Where are our hearts?
Over these past few days I strongly thought about my motivations for buying the greenhouse but also for learning to play the piano and for putting it on hold again. The Bible says that where our treasure is, there our hearts will be also (Matthew 6:21 Luke 12:34)
Yes, I needed to put my piano plans aside because my motive was not what it should have been. I also should have stopped, thought and put aside my plans for the greenhouse in due time. Thinking that the greenhouse would help to save us money was good. The problem, however, was my crave for self-sufficiency: I took the blessings of growing my own fruit and veggies for granted. I wanted more! I wanted to grow more food so to be independent. Independent from what or from whom?
The passage of Matthew 6:19-24 came to my mind. Where is my treasure? I wondered and Is that really where I want my heart to be also? I think Matthew Henry explains it best:
Worldly-mindedness is as common and as fatal a symptom of hypocrisy as any other, for by no sin can Satan have a surer and faster hold of the soul, under the cloak of a visible and passable profession of religion, than by this; and therefore Christ, having warned us against coveting the praise of men, proceeds next to warn us against coveting the wealth of the world; in this also we must take heed, lest we be as the hypocrites are, and do as they do: the fundamental error that they are guilty of is, that they choose the world for their reward; we must therefore take heed of hypocrisy and worldly-mindedness, in the choice we make of our treasure, our end, and our masters.